The Desire To Be Humiliated

Humility is one of the most important virtues in the spiritual edifice. Actually, it is the foundation of the spiritual life. All of the saints did, indeed, strive for humility of heart. We all should yearn and desire to grow in humility, but it costs - and it costs very dearly! It requires full submission to humiliation to achieve humility.

As Dasa, humiliation is a daily part of my diet. As Saint Faustina once wrote: “humiliation is my daily food”.

Some have a desire for erotic humiliation - many of those are Christians who know of Christ but do not know the Christ. I teach that the ability to take something in our lives that causes us erotic pleasure or arousal can be transformed into a precious tool, cultivating sexual energy and channeling it to our spiritual energy.

For example, those who are aroused by BDSM, or humiliation and discipline, can use those tools to cultivated a heightened state of sexual energy, denying themselves ejaculation while maintaining a perpetual state of ecstasy. It turns you into a spiritual powerhouse and advances you in new ways spiritually. Saint Teresa of Avila says that humility is simply this—THE TRUTH. It is the truth about who we are - both in the world and in the eyes of the Elohim. Another definition of humility might be the following: “Recognize that all the good I have done in the past, are doing in the present, and can possibly do in the future is due to God’s goodness to me; whereas, all the evil I have done is my own fault.”

When you make love to your partner you are enjoying the pleasure for yourselves. For men it is almost always about the ejaculation. But what if your sex life, in whatever form, was cultivated as an offering to God - denying the ejaculation, retaining the semen, and experiencing an orgasm of a spiritual nature which fuels the physical in the process?

On one occasion Jesus described a key attribute of who He was and is: “I am meek and humble of heart…” (Mt. 11: 28) If Jesus is meek and humble of heart and He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life and our model to follow, then we should try to imitate His sublime humility and also his humiliation. Embrace humiliation when it comes to you.

To truly be humble is, indeed, easier said than done! Many would like to be humble in a vague, abstract, and theoretical way but they are not willing to count the cost for such a key virtue. Without true humility our spiritual life will be side-tracked, if not paralyzed.

Once Saint Augustine was asked what virtue to practice? The great saint replied: “Humility and humility and humility…” This great saint was bitterly humbled by a life of sin and slavery to sin into his early thirties and he knew everyone knew it. He drew on that sense of exposure daily, drinking from his cup of humiliation to reach humility.

The Parable of the Pharisee and the Publican

In the Parable of the Pharisee and the Publican the one who went away justified and praised by God was not the Pharisee, who seemed to be doing (at least on the exterior) all things well - praying, fasting and observing the Law. The one justified and praised by Jesus was the Publican. The reason is clear: humility. He would not even lift his eyes and simply begged to be forgiven because he was a sinner. Read and meditate upon this wonderful Parable on Prayer (Luke.18:9-14); to pray well we must have a deeply humble and dependent heart - indeed to rely totally on God.

Another short definition of prayer might be whatever we do, do it as God’s very human creation and give it to God as an offering. Even your sex life.

The following are ways that we can strive to acquire the all-essential virtue of humility.

BEGGARS

Saint Augustine, quoted the following: “Prayer is the raising of one’s mind and heart to God or the requesting of good things from God.“ But when we pray, do we speak from the height of our pride and will, or “out of the depths” of a humble and contrite heart? He who humbles himself will be exalted. Humility is the foundation of prayer; only when we humbly acknowledge that “we do not know how to pray as we ought” are we ready to receive freely the gift of prayer. “Man is a beggar before God.”

See yourself as a crippled beggar before God

1. This means that we are totally dependent on God just as beggars are towards their benefactors for their daily sustenance! We must beg from the Lord for humility of heart. When you are humiliated physically, sexually, at your job, or by your spouse draw from it and share in the passion and suffering of the Naked Christ.

Remember that once you never existed, and God gave you life and constantly maintains your whole being in existence! We are made in the very image of the Elohim.

Mother Teresa: insights on serving, loving, and humility

2. CHARITY. Once Father Benedict Groeschel was asked how to grow in humility and he responded that the best way to grow in humility is to practice the virtue of charity. What does this mean? Simply this! When I go out of my way to help, serve, give, pour myself out for the good of my brothers or sisters in need not only am I practicing charity but I am also practicing humility. Another definition of humility might be simply this: Putting others above myself!

3. HUMILIATIONS. Beyond the shadow of a doubt, being humiliated in any time place, or even by any person, is exceedingly difficult. When humiliated by someone there are two options: to seek out a way to get even, or revenge toward the person that humiliated me, which is the easiest path; or, instead of seeking out revenge, I could forgive the person that humiliated and hurt me and imitate Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ who suffered so much for me and my salvation. Why not imitate Jesus and the saints and accept humiliations and unite them to Jesus, especially in His Passion and death?

The Crowning with Thorns of Jesus

4. HUMILITY OF JESUS. Remember always the humility of Jesus. Remember at the Last Supper he stripped naked in front of His disciples, reached for a towel, wrapped it around His waist and washed their feet. Remember, He was stripped naked to be beaten, and hung on the cross naked. Remember that He conquered the grave, emerging from the tomb naked before God and man. Every humiliation that comes into your life is fuel. Pain and pleasure register in the same area of the brain. Learn to love your humiliation, desire it, and embrace it. Meditate on it and feed on it. What once caused you pain will translate into joy; then you are on the road to a place of HUMILITY through humiliation.

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